Friday, November 27, 2009

ooppss,i did it again??

what did i do? i didn't ask for all these to happen..hurmm,it just popped out like pimples coming out at times u don't need them (since when do we need pimples anyway, LOL)..
i'm just trying to be friends, not more than that..i care about people...(sounds mcm sy prasan kan, may be..hmm,i thought about that too,but....)
besides, I'll never be good enough...not anymore...

-let's get going, this will be one sad post-

i'm trying to make a decision, but thinking makes me crazy..
one of the "commenter" did tell me not to think,hahaha..
i'll only stop thinking if my heart stop beating...
what should i do..
let's do this in a poem...

took the path of no return,
mistakes made & tears are shed..
now the continents spread apart,
leaving me to drown gasping for air..

i need a way out,
out from these fussiness..
tired of keeping all these to myself..
my tears,they long to flow..
but i said no,dont cry..
it'll still be here...

Thursday, November 19, 2009

i'm exam free..!! for now..hmm

at last, i finished my paper on Tuesday...we went on to the after party right after,haha!!
kboxing and daytona-ing = pokai ody,hahaha!!!
ermmm,finished d exam means waiting fr the result,not a good thing actually..

Kelle blik Upsi daaaa,huhuhu!!!
teda da kwn p kbox pas ni!!
wpn kpala ko nda tebotak tym jwb DA,sy msh syg ko..hehe
haha,sy syg ko oooh kelle.. (i'm straight,i'm not into girl.... XD)

pre registration ums..WTH...
d system sucks laa,cant even register..
for nature sake, pliiisss la upgrade d whole thing..
bkin malu ja ooh lau U lain tau, web based kunu..
tp mcm longkang,hahaha..
(allyshea,watch ur word..ada jg yg kena saman d ums ni,hahaha)

cuti plan?
research..(my fren laughed at this)..let me keep the topic to myself,keke..
try to lose a bit weight,haha!!
treadmill,wait fr me..
(if too thin i'll hv to buy new shirts n pants baa,kekeke)

cuzzy2 dr ranau..
nice to keep in touch with all of u..
hope to see all of u in person soon..
mau pluk2 cium kmu,keke...
cium pipi ja baa,jgn kmu geli2 sna,hahaha!!

Happy Oliday kmu suma!!
frens from seberang laut- jgn cuba2 brenang bik sni k nex sem..menangis timun laut nmpk bdn kmu,kekekeke!!!
frens yg nda pyh seberang laut- jgn p brenang jg,brendam ja kmu ni besen,keke...

Take k!!!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

kebuduhan yg mlampau..

knpa otak ku bputar pd arah yg blainan drpad makhluk2 d lain d semesta ini..
adaka sy x normal seperti anda semua..??
jwpnny tdk,haha.. sy mrepek ni.

hmmph,penat..skt kpala sy bfkr..
alangkah baiknya jika dunia ini sempurna sperti syurga..
pencapaian yg amat bharga..
seperti kata2 dlm Utopia..
falsafah tlah berlalu tp ku mempraktikkannya..
(bahasa ku seperti sdg mduduki peperiksaan sastera tingkatan 6)

actually i'm dizzy from thinking..
and walking backwards to where i'm not supposed to step on..
i know it's not beneficial fr me, but still i jump into the hole..
two posts on the same topic but still i didnt change..

i don see the heaven light coming,
my rainbow is fading too..
no more light for me??
where am i supposed to head..

can i create another source for light..
can i move on in darkness...

Allyshea, u will not reach the future,
if u keep walking backwards..

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

wish time flies...

there're bricks on my chest,it's unbearable.. me to forget,need to let go of it..

i'm digging my own grave,
& with ur help, i'm dying...
and slowly moving to my deathbed...

i know my place,
why did i still linger around place where i don't belong..
today slap me in d heart,
wake up i tell myself..
what i didn't realize is,
I'm awake, but i force myslelf to sleep..

come on..knock urself on d wall..
who cares about d rainbow,
u'll find ur heaven light soon..

Sunday, November 1, 2009

a token of my appreciation...

today's blog is all about thanking people around me.. ^^

1. my current roomate...(wpn ku hanya penetap smntara)
Dearest Onnia, Nuyuy, Kak Yong & Sis Jane: thanx very much for letting me stay in ur room this sem..wpn bilik tu hny bkapasiti utk 4 org, tp kmu sggp jg menerima muatan xtra ini..hehe!!
kak Yong- sorry lau ksy buat bsng tym ko blajar..nda sgaja bos..kak,nnt kita mkn maggi telur lg,hahaha...(msk d rice cooker..wee~~)
Nyuy + Onia- tQ jaga2 sy..Yuy,tQ pujuk n nsht sy tym sy sedih..ko la ibu hrpn generasi kita!!
Sis Jane- Thanx fr sharing d space wt me...nex tym we go chapel lg ah,hehe...
Makaseh ngan kamu suma for everything!! ini la bilik yg plng best!! plng caring n toleransi!! hehehe...n sorry lau sy ktawa tlpau kuat,hahaha!!
huhuhuhu..shedih oh mau pindah bilik nex sem..jd ulat buku sepenuh masa la sy ni nnt..
hopefully everything will go well...

2. senior2 n kekawan d SPPS!!
akak Kembar, bro, Specky sis, Sis Eva, Kak Anis..Abg Alif, Kak Dayah,Chena,Dewi,...
waaaaah,bnykny kmu niii...sorry ah lau nda tsebut nama kmu..yg pntg kamu suma la!!
hehe,thanx fr d memories...besh kwn ngan kmu suma..besh b'program ngan kamu!!
minat maaf dr hjng rmbt ku yg curly ni ke hjng kuku kaki ku yg blm dipotong pendek ini,klau ada kekasaran kata n tingkah laku yg krng enak ditonton..hmm.,bhs bm ku yg amat lancar..
kak Anis,jgnlupa tarian kemenangan tu ah,hehehe...
klau ada masa kita p minum kopi sama2 ah,hehehe..
pa brng lau kita tpisah bgtu ja..huhu...

kwn2 upsi: kmu pn mmg bulih ah..hahaha!! especially kelle,pa brng klau ko lupa kami!! bowling lg baa,haha,mentang2 pndai da skit sy main kan.. 3 jejaka-x brpa rpt ngan kmu ba..
atai-senyum polisi hdp!! awang-nda lari tu "topi".. mustakim-bkin tkt muka ko,garang ja ni,kekeke!!!

3. my two chixs: Bell & T'rah...
Trah-wpn ko mcm angin (ada musim) ko ttp kwn ku,hahaha!!
wpn bkn suma org memahami gaya ko yg unik,ku ttp bthn d sisi ko!!
we share d same benua kan,hehe..
we scolded at each other, but at d end of the day,we still stick by...
wpn ko tleh jatuh berkali2 d hdpn ku,ko ttp atirah yg ku knl pd sem 1 2008/09,hahaha
nsb nda hlng ingatan..sot2 ni..
trah,for u i'll use d word forever..remember this sentence k!!

Bell-ko la sayap sy chix,hehhe..u really helped me a lot..
thanx fr everything..
my friendship may not be as much as others', but thats all i hv to offer..
i'm trying hard to cherish wat friends are..i nvr had a good taste of a real friendship until i meet u,hihi..seriously...

huhu,napa shedih sgt da ni..mcm sy tulis wasiat ja oohh..
palis,blm ready mau matai ni...
bnyk ba sy mau tulis ni,tp kmu msh bwh umur,hahahaha!!!

ckp la ni..pening da sy mau taip...
ada lori ada bas,
kalau brani, balas!! (i mean comment,kekeke)

B'low r Gifts which God sent for me..hehe

Bell~T'rah~A sinner

Sisterhood..Luv ya all!!

fren2 yg lain...