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u know me by my name,

my past u didnt care.

you're like an answered prayer,

with history of ten grown men.

i question the choice i've made,

every hour of the day.

if you're an answered prayer,

is this the test i'll have to face.

an angel will not be sent to the fallen one.

to dance under the heaven light it's just a dream.

happily ever after comes alive only in books.

hope given to kids, mask for the real world.

-me in a hole-

this will be one depressed post i'll have to warn you.

these few days (from the day i last see you) have been my doom days.

doesn't quite know why, but i feel useless and depressed the whole time.

everyone seem to have things to do, and i'm stuck at home.

yeaah,get a job you said..i was planning to get one after the Kaamatan celebration at Grace's house..kinda asked help from a friend,and he managed to get me to an interview on the 1st, the celebration will be on the 4th.i might not have the chance to go and have the fun which i've craved for a long time! trust me,staying home even with internet and Tv is not fun at all!

to make things worse,he's busy helping his family.

not blaming him,what he's doing is good.i'm glad he's not spoiled.

maybe i've got used to get his attention all the time before this and feel kinda lonely now.

i sound so lame and SPOILED.i suck big time.

gong to work after this will make things more difficult.

the distance..OH,COME ON,BOTH OF YOU ARE STILL IN THE SAME CITY FOR HEAVEN SAKE! i knooow right.huh! oh well,the bricks are still on my chest.

my tooth hurt.like big time!

it's the one at the back,i'm not sure what do you call that,but it hurts!

i have to pull it out before i start working (if i get the job,fingers crossed *half hoping i wont get it**who knows for what reason*) i dont want to work in pain.

oh,this pushes me deeper into the hole i'm in right now.

thanks paracetamol even though u dont work that well.

i dont know who to talk to.

i dont even know what to talk about.

i'll be fine,i'm sure.

-dedicated to you seniors-

uwaaaaaa~

u're leaving us already.no more together time.no more ketawa kuat2 smpai lupa dunia seketika.no more share2 isi hati.no more men bubut smbil mengolo n cubit lemak.no more gmbar2.no more hari baju petak sedunia.no more "kak/bang,blanja".no more "hi ally/ali/pumpkin" from u.

sis emma!

ya,i know,dlm sabah jg kita,tp kebrangkalian itk kita jmpa?? naaaa

ko yakin jak,dgn smgat yg ada,hlng tu "aset" nnti,ehehehe

tp klu nda hlng pn ndapa ba tu,yg pntg hati kita gmbra.betuuuull~

ko active2 dlm fb jg pasni aah.

klu ko mo khwin sma bob da btau sy,ehehehe,mo pg tgk jg baa.

tepayah la australian guy,hahaha,itu utk sy!

oh ya,tQ mo ksh kenal sy sma kwn ko,hahaha,tp tdk jd =="

sis eva!

ahli kolam renang! dgn kak amoi :)

siok luah prasaan dgn kmu hri tu,wpn lama da,tp sy msh ingat tu pa yg kita crita2 dlm air,hahahaha.tym kita crita2 tu jg la kita cipta teknik renang baru- m'gustan! :D

kak kembars!

sy blm brapa lulus mo differentiate kamu,ehehehe.ada 1kali sy salam one of you,then tba2 k.kmbr yg satu lg muncul,trus sy bingung ni mana yg sy sdh salam.hahaha.trus sy tnya bell lg mana yg sdh sy salam.best nmpk kmu kak,mmg stail kembar la.ehehehe.semuaaaa sma ni,best!

bro hasrol!

ih,sedih sy baca note bro d FB.trus btl2 trasa yg kamu semua mo grad da ni.

smlm time bbq tu pn mo ngs sy "bye2" kamu.senior yg lain dpt jmpa lg sabtu ni,time program,tp ko teda bro! :'( mcm abg betul2 da ko bro,sbb sy mmg teda abg,hehehe,jd kira trip ada abg la klu dgn bro,ekekekeke.no more kena ketuk kpala oleh ko bro,huhuhu (psl mngolo prg d bustop hr tu,ingat?hahahaha)

ramai lg senior yg dear to my heart,tp ini jak yg plng mlekat d hati tym sy menaip ni.

sorry if ada pa2 yg sy buat bkin sakit hati n tdk senonoh dpan kmu,huhu.

all d best in ur coming teaching life!all of you will do great,i know that!

jap2,sy mo bpantun,hahahaha

klau ada sumur,sy mo tmpg mandi,

klu ada umur yg pnjg,jom la jmpa lg! :D

love each n everyone of you! <3

-queen of my heart-

it's almost here,d day when every queen should feel extra special.

we have different ways to show them our love.

it doesn't matter what u're buying or what you planned to do.

as long as you're sincere and there with her,i'm sure she'll have that big smile across her face all day long.if it isn't there,i'm sure it's in her heart.

mine..

she's the super mom!

her super power:: deal with us 2 girls and run the family!

she's the father when we need to get disciplined.

she's the mother when we need shoulders to cry on.

she's there to get us back in line.

she's there to tell us "you are fine".

i'm sorry

i couldn't be your angel,i'm far from light.

i make you worry when i'm far from home.

i made you cry with what i did.

all d golds n diamonds will not be enough to thank you.

my endless prayer accompany you.

try as i might to take you out of the blue,

i love you very much,i swear that's true.

happy mother's day mummy. we love you :')

-random facts (not scientifically proven)-

okay.it's been a while since i last posted.and yes,i do realize i've used the same intro a few times now.oh well,it's appropriate,so deal with it.actually i just went and got my broadband fixed,lets not talk bout that,not interesting at all.so here goes MY facts:

1) UMS' HEP is a little slow.a little?i'm being kind.what's d point of having a so called "one stop center" if it doesn't function as one.it's there to lessen students' burden to go all the way up to the other building to deal with small matters.might as well close up the center and get rid of all the furniture in a yard sale.hahaha

2) i'm a little deaf.not quite sure which ear.but one of it.or maybe both.shit.yeah,i have trouble hearing what people are saying to me.i can hear you speaking but i may perceived it as something else. "mo bikin beli bola" "aaah,bikin beli cola la pula" "bola la kak,bkn cola" =="

3) MEMPHIS MAY FIRE.listen to their latest album-The Hollow.the songs are nice.they sings for every character we have in this world.the unfaithful.the sinner.and so on.well,listen to it if only u like loud songs. (i think the loud songs has "contributed" in my deafness XD )

4) i find joy in teasing people.hahahahaha.but it's a mutual tease.you know,i laugh at you and you'll laugh at me back thingy.then at the end you'll end up laughing your butt off.do you really laugh your butt off??or did i just make that up.you'll know who's your friend when you can laugh and make stupid jokes with them and they'll laugh with you.

5) i like laughing! so much that i think i sometimes forgot to control myself and end up laughing like a hyena (a wild animal from Africa and Asia that looks like a dog, hunts in groups and makes a sound similar to an unpleasant human laugh <---that's the definition i copied from Cambridge advanced learners' dictionary.avoiding myself form plagiarism) in public places.

6) i have a boyfriend!hahaha.that is so lame.i'm not sure where we're heading.but i 'm not thinking much bout it 'cause i'm living for the moment baby!come what may.my steel heart can take it.thanks to my colorful past.hahaha.

7) i need money.desperately.for what you ask?for everything i must say.well,not THAT desperate.but i'll be happier if i have extras with me now. (if only the university's management is not that BS,i may have some now)

8) hate it when good food (when i say good food,it doesn't mean it's healthy,it's the taste i'm talking about) makes you gain weight real fast!okay,my definition of good food are McD,cakes,chickens,hot rice with soy sauce <--you should try this,it's a 3 seconds food :). i will not list it all,it's making me hungry :/

hmm.that's about it.8 is good.it means richness in Chinese :D

i will get rich soon! hahahaha.still,fingers crossed!

so long!